Life Goes On

Today is a day full of memories.  Most of which I wish I could forget.  My younger of two sons was born 40 years ago today. Please read my previous post to know the status of my non relationship with this young man.  It is one of sadness and abuse. I'm going to celebrate today, though.  Not because it belongs to him.  But because it is a day I triumphed through a very difficult 9 months..... My first son was two years old when I learned I was pregnant again.  I was thrilled. At 11 weeks of my pregnancy, I went for an ultrasound.  Alone.  I was not part of a marital couple who participated in such important appointments together.  I was married to an abusive man who wanted nothing to do with anything that wasn't about him. So  I went to my ultrasound appointment and sure enough there was something in between the legs of the image on the screen - and the nurse confirmed I was having another boy.  A girl would have been nic...

  Be careful what you wish for because you just might get it. A few months ago, my ringtone went off on my cellphone while I was painting. As I looked at the caller ID screen, my heart felt like it skipped a beat. The identification said that one of my two adult alienated sons was calling. He had not phoned me in almost 20 years. You know how there are things you pray for - well, at least I do as I have occasionally asked God for assistance in the same breath as expressing gratitude...but you realize they are unlikely? I often pray for my sons to have awakenings. To understand that they were victims of their father's abuse in so many ways, especially in destroying my relationships with them. Parental alienation is the weaponizing of children, usually in high conflict divorces, as they are brainwashed by an abusive parent to turn against the targeted loving parent. As in my case, it was merely another way for my ex-husband to hurt me. My ...