A Day of Lost Faith
Today is Rosh Hashanah for those of the Jewish religion, of which I am one. And today I sit here alone, pondering my faith - not in God (for I always believe in Him) - but in humanity. It's been a rough patch over the last couple of years. Come to think of it, I look back on so much of my life, and damn - I've lived through so much shit! I know everyone has a story, but I'm amazed I'm still alive. I am thinking about the concept of faith. Faith in our religion, faith in humanity, faith for a better tomorrow. And I know I have lost so much faith. On this day when we observe a new year on the Jewish calendar, my belief system feels so very unsteady. The world is constantly betrayed. I guess what I really feel is that I am tired of betrayal. The saddest thing about betrayal is that it never comes from strangers, or from enemies: it comes from those you trust and care about the most. And the worse betrayal of all is when that person holds your heart....