Family Isn't Everything

People often ask me why I don't speak or write about my older son. I think it's mostly because he terrified me. My first born will be 44 years old on December 19th. Jason. His father, my abusive ex husband, turned him against me decades ago....Jason was another victim of parental alienation who took on his father's persona, at 17 years old he was diagnosed as showing early signs of sociopathy, so cruel and he has not communicated with me for over 15 years.The tragedy that occurred today triggered terrible memories... including the time when Jason was almost 18 (already 6 feet tall), and Judge Braslow ,of Westchester County Court, court ordered a restraining order against him for threatening to kill me(he threatened my life in front of my domestic violence representative from the shelter I stayed at in Pleasantville NY, who reported it to the judge) ….I should write a book. 😞 
For the people who say “family is everything”…
Family is not always everything.
One of the worst things in the world is living in fear of your own child.  A child that was loved and adored by you.
My heart breaks over the Reiner's murders.
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